One day you are going to miss me and the next best thing to me being there is reading my blog.
So this will be all you have, and you'll probably read too much into the stuff I was kidding about and not enough into the stuff I really meant to say and care about, but shit man, that's just you! That's why you let me die/ that's why you never really cared about me.
Are you lonely. Too bad. I don't want my words to comfort you. You really don't deserve anything nice to happen for you because in the end you let me down, Just like society, just like me parents. Just like every woman who spread her legs for me. You all suck and you never cared about me.
That's okay I guess. I care enough about myself for the two of us. For the three of us really. It's just self preservation mechanism so don't judge me too harshly. When you are unlovable and weird you have to love yourself.
I am not sure when I got so unlovable, but I know that it's no coincidence that I stopped carrying about the world as soon as it stopped carrying about me.
I have to get a new doctor as I am 1,000 dollars behind in payments. He won't give me an appointment until I give him money. Some strange sensations are in my chest. Feels like they are caving in. I am sure that is serious. But I have an appointment with my cancer doc in Sept.. Hopefully I live until then.
I am thirsty. I need a beer. If you'll wait I get a few and then maybe huff some PLEDGE and we can get the party started.